so senior year, seems like only yesterday i was just in middle school acting silly. now i'm older and see things differently. when i was younger i wanted to be older and now that i'm older i wish i was younger. i just want to be a kid now. people tell you don't grow up to fast. and you know what they were right. now that i'm about to turn eighteen i feel like all these responsibilities are going to be thrown at me. and you know what i don't think i'm ready for them. adults tell me i am but i just don't want to grow up. i know i need to move on and i'm ready to just GO and see the world and make a difference. but you know what i am scared. a part of me is telling me to stay home where my mom can take care of me and never let me down like the world will. the other part of me is telling me to LEAVE you can get through this, and i know with the help of God i can do anything. being the oldest out of five girls is a lot of responsibility and knowing what i do affects how they act hurts me. because i'm not the best example in the world. heck who is? well it seems sometimes my life is going down hill. my friends turn out not to be my friends. i try cope not having friends at school. but it hurts. but i know i have FAMILY in my summer friends. they are the ones i poured out my hearts too. who saw me at my weakest and saw me break down and cry. i feel very blessed to have met each and everyone of them. i can call them my true friends. well life goes on and i may face problems but i wont BACKDOWN.
